I'm Bringin' Sexy Back!

Yeah so it's been a long while since i've posted here!

So currently as of about a week or two i've been back on the wagon

of weight loss and exercise. I've been doing really good but i haven't

weighed myself because i don't want to know. I figure i'll know it's working

whenever my clothes are fitting better. So far they are not BUT I'm stronger!

Yesterday I ran for a strait 12 minutes stoped and then ran for another 5 all together

I moved for a total of 30 minutes. My goal for tomorrow is to run a strait 13 minutes

and if i can go further then that will so rock! For today i'm hurting in places that just aren't

natural LOL but it's good. My eating has been good too I don't have a real plan except to just

not eat junk.

It's been 5 days since my last post and thats because I've been so busy!

Good news is i have shed 4 pounds and that is hot!

Gives me mad motivation to keep going so i will.

I'm going to be tested on this journey across country though but I'm making preparations to have fresh fruit on hand for snacking.

Since we are moving i don't know if I'll be able to check in or not but i will do my best! I haven't been brave enough to speak on my weight yet but I'm going to spill my guts and put that hideous picture up i promise. Well for all of you out there on a weight loss journey...

keep your head up and don't give up

We can do it together!

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I was so tested today

We went to Salinas today because my computer basically well i guess we were having problems and they ended having to keep it *sniff*. Anyways since we didn't have time to go eat dinner we had to go out and where did my darling DH lead us?

Chines food All you can eat bar! Double gulp! gasp..........

But you know what.........I made it and I did well I'm so proud of myself. I can't believe I did it but I did :D.

Anyways thought I'd just write about my food battle today. I never really realized how big of an addiction i had to food, it's so sad. I'm just grateful that I'm fixing it now so that i can be healthy.

just some thoughts

I have so many thoughts as I'm going through this and I'm wondering is it normal for someone to post on their blog more than once a day? I haven't been to blog etiquette 101 so i wouldn't know. As I go over the actual weight loss scenario I picture myself with the pounds falling off and I'm get all giddy. I have experience great loss in these past months with my uncle Ricky and my sister Delisia I miss them so much and it's a loss that hurts deeply.

Me losing this weight will be a great loss  also but not a hurtful one a happy one. I won't regret losing my unattractive roll that hangs over my pants when I sit down. I won't miss the feeling of being the biggest person in a room........well i guess that's not really a problem if I'm a size 12 (thats my goal size). I won't miss being uncomfortable with myself in certain things.

I can't wait to be able to find things in my closet to fit or in stores to fit easier. I can find things here and there but it's rare to find something that i really enjoy in the plus size section. I can't wait to have the energy that I've always dreamed of now that will be priceless. Aghh to go outside and walk for long periods of times with out all the complaining! LOL It's going to be nice. I'm a die hard scrapbooker so no more worrying about the awkward roll. I'm going to be comfortable being me and knowing that i will be healthy.

First day of the program

So today was the start of my program and it consisted of 2 shakes, antioxidants, and an natural accelerator tablet (thank god only one pill). So today i chose to have the chocolate shakes the taste was cool. I don't care what anybody says a diet shake is a diet shake and not a milk shake so i judge taste on the fact that it's a diet shake. I've had tons of different ones so i think I'm a good judge. Anyways this one had a hint of cinnamon in to me and it was waay better than what i had anticipated and I don't mind having them. Now the nutrition inside of them now that's whats impressive 23 grams of proteins and like 25 grams of carbs nice balance. I also liked the fact that it had nice consistency not watered down. It probably would have been waay better blended with the ice but it didn't matter to me either way so i just drank just shook up, it also blended nicely in a shaker none of those chalky surprises. Another plus on the shake is the fact that it was filling......I hate a shake that you drink and your STARVING ready to eat anything that comes in your way as in why they fail!

The antioxidant drink was insanely awesome i swear i felt the energy from that instantly....if nothing else that's a keeper.

I was good on my hydration with drinking a gallon of water i could have done better but hey taking baby steps. I ate dinner with my husband it was a mock fried rice with brown rice, broccoli and ground turkey YUMMY! I could have added some leafy greens but I didn't I'm way tired even as i type this.

I also did the dreaded measurements! Ack! My husband loved doing this as he molested me the whole time! OOOO I love that man!!!! I love that he loves me no matter what, but i didn't feel all that sexy when i was writing those BIG numbers down but it's all good because I'm going to get it off.

Check out my banner up there isn't it cute! My hubby D did it for me awwww he loves me LOL.

Okay so now that we've seen the cute around here I have to warn you on what will be happening...

it won't be good. I will be exposing ALL of me.......yep I'm doing it so if you want to get the before picture in all it's horrifying glory it will be posted. Now I'm debating on whether i should show it at the same time as the after LOL. I'll be thinking that one over for a day or two. I'm taking it today and it's going to be in some short shorts that i wear for my hubby and a shirt that's not baggy and I'm going to let the public see..........oh god i thought i was gong to faint..whew..

So I'll be documenting in front of the whole world my journey to bring my sexy back. I know she's in there some where covered under all those extra pounds! I'll find her though.

The big day will be tomorrow I'll be starting this program hopefully i don't feel like crap. Thats what i expect because it starts out with a cleanse and every cleanse that I've done before has tasted bad and starved me to death and I just couldn't take it so ......I quit. This one is supposed to be different but aren't they all? Sorry not trying to go in this with a negative attitude but it's kinda hard. Anyways i gotta get off of here and get ready to pick up my Chervonne.

I missed posting yesterday but I did really well! I ate good and since yesterday was my free day i didn't exercise just kinda cleaned around the house.

So far today I've done except I'm having trouble eating when i need to. I get busy and before i know 5 hours have passed by yikes! Well I'll be getting my new goodies in the mail soon.....gulp! My friend G is a consultant and since her product was alot cheaper than this other one i decided to give hers a try to see how it goes. Hopefully it doesn't shrink my head......unless it's that dreaded roll around my neck, it's cutting of my air supply as i type now.

I do hope that it's going to shrink my EVERY THING else including my face LOL we shall see. I'm really scared about taking different things because seems like as soon as something new hits the market you find out later that it's killing off the population. I did do my research on this stuff and it's gotten some heavy attention from a couple of authors that i highly respect and some news coverage. Seems like the formulator know his stuff and there is this other Dr. that's promoting it too ........looked her up and she's a physician. Beware of "doctors" the person could be a doctor of TV's and just going around throwing that term around. So anyways just reporting on whats been going on. I guess i should do a more detailed list of the stuff that I'm doing........puh that takes time LOL! I'll start slow get the diet down and then work on the data keeping sheet. That would mean that i would have to reveal my weight and inches and just thinking about that makes me want to hyperventilate .........and if you knew the truth you might would to I'm not trying to kill anyone out there. Anyways get at cha' later!

I feel pretty good about today.

Today was good but hard. It was hard because we went out to eat and I couldn't fill my tummy with my normal comfort food even though my sweet husband indulged.

I instead chose grilled shrimp,

rice pilaf (very little)

and a garden salad.

One thing that i did notice that I didn't feel over stuffed and i wasn't miserable afterwords which was a nice change.

I completed my walk today also even thought I hurt and didn't want to do it.

So over all today i feel accomplished. Today down tomorrow to go.........

One day at a time.

My first

This is the first post of my weight loss blog! WOOO HOOO!!! I'm doing it for real but first I want to make some rules

1. I'll use cuss words if i damn well please and yes the f bomb will be dropped if i can't eat junk food then i should be able to use whatever foul language I want.

2. Please don't complain here I've got my own problems 100lbs of them! If you don't like what you read you can just go some where else because you know what? i need a place to say whatever the hell I want.

Okay so now that I've got all those issues out of the way I'll start with my turning point. I was looking in the reflection of my husband big enormous stupid TV and that's when I see my chin both of them and the roll that is supposed to be my neck! I guess I just didn't see myself like that i mean I don't know how i missed the massive growth that I call my belly. The thing that I've been wondering is when was my husband going to be like babe your really fat and you've got a double chin! Probably never that's just the kind of guy he is. So I'll just have to do something about it now won't I?!?!

I have had a fairly successful day......I walked the 2 miles to pick my daughter up from school pushing the limo. Now for those of you who are curious as to what this is exactly it's the thing they call a double stroller that's has to weigh at least 30 or more pounds. I had 2 kids in it my 3 year old and 4 year old pushing it up and down the hills of Seaside, CA. So that was a work out my body is killing me. I must say that I feel really good thought I kept wanting to turn back no lie but I didn't I completed the whole thing yay me!